Only 9 o'clock and I can't hold off going to sleep any longer. My grandfather had a very bad Monday but had the pacemaker put in this morning and is stable but in ICU and on breathing support. I myself had a Progesterone test today and am anxious to hear if I Od. I believe I am still Oing on my own but that is only part of the issue with diminished ovarian reserve. I am getting more behind in work and school. I am looking forward to my visit with a Chinese medicine doctor tomorrow. She isn't Chinese and her specialty is not infertility but it is probably the closest I am going to get in Ventura. Bit disheartened to think it might take many months to get my body "harmonized" I don't have that many months. I want to start IUIs in August. I also really really don't know about going all the way with IVF. I think it is just too cost prohibitive with limited chances of success. I also am so angry about having to spend money to go through all this. I just want to be PG and have a baby. Who knows if I will have to have surgery for the cyst or if they will have to take the ovary. Who knows about the return of endo? Who knows. Well I can't handle any more of being awake today. I couldn't sleep last night and hope tonight is better.